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Category Archives: CKJ
Friends?
Friends; That is what he said. I mistakenly took it as the end. My heart had been alone for so long; I unwillingly decided to give in. By taking another’s advice; I scared him. I have now accepted that the probable end is a positive one. I would like to honestly be your friend.
Why?
Because I truly want to feel that my wrong-doings are resolved; I choose to trust what my spiritual advisor envisions. It is seen that you are NOT the man with whom I should continue to be involved; according to the views, the ways you behave are not completely your decisions. By no means, does thatContinue reading “Why?”
Acceptance
When I am happy deep inside of myself; I want to go out and play the part. Similarly, when I am conflicted within my core; my creativity flows. I don’t write when there isn’t anything plaguing my brain…my feelings…my heart. Maybe this is why I seek out the most complications; to fuel my creative productivity.Continue reading “Acceptance”
I’m not crazy…
Maybe I am a masochist; the fear of losing you is a sort of catalyst. Only then do I begin to admit how I feel to myself; I trust that it is real. The pleasure of the pain; is why I feel like I can write again.
Protected: a letter to you
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If I never see your face again, I (DO) mind…
When picturing you, I should not care what others see in my heart. Instead, I should choose to see my view. Moments before we met; at me, you flashed that irresistible smile. It was so genuine that I don’t believe I can ever forget. This may seem as if I am feeling too much forContinue reading “If I never see your face again, I (DO) mind…”
Protected: Lie Baby Lie
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Ridiculous.
Idiotic; that is the way I feel. I chose to let myself run; so I could stop the feelings from actually being real. Time; that is what he gave me. Only 4 days until my acceptance; now he is acting shady. Apathy; that is what I wish I felt. Lack of action forContinue reading “Ridiculous.”
Relief
I assumed that it would forever be you; your memory has always cast a (dark?) shadow over other possible ones. When I admitted to you that you are my forever love, I felt free. I can finally say “goodbye” and move on; it’s true. I cannot believe it has taken me a decade to understandContinue reading “Relief”
