Jerry, I’m so sorry. Im sorry I thought you would grow out of your frustration. Im sorry I thought you would learn better coping skills. Im sorry that I was frightened and unsure of how to react when you were in that home. Im sorry I ever let our bond be “forgotten” by distance, time,Continue reading “(a letter for my big brother, Jerry)”
p 35 my ritual for Jerry We will be outside, sun shining, standing close. Very few people will attend, only b/c you feel self conscious, not b/c you are not loved. We connected b/c we understood one another. We needed each other. We would laugh @ breakfast, giggle @ bedtime. Watch “Robin Hood: Men InContinue reading
after confusing, scary, guilty, angry, continuous, questioning, numb, cold, thoughtful, stinging, achy(sic), regretful before
death is the unknown. the questioning. death is bitter cold. numbing pain. frightening visions and inescapable thoughts. life’s temperature is hot.
I could have missed the PAIN, But I’d have (had to) miss the dance 07.23.02 –But grief is about living. –Grief involves letting go of someone who has died, but it’s also about holding on and recognizing life, especially your own. (page 9) death is… sunny skies interrupted by clouds of darkness, harsh rain, clearingContinue reading
Jerry I guess you finally stopped believing Any hope would ever find you. (‘Tony’’ – Patti Griffin)