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Most of this is about one particular boyfriend I had and one who will forever be special in my heart because we shared a very close friendship before and during our romantic relationship. Please don’t think I am missing this…I was simply reading a lot of old things that I had written, and during this time is when I was very free with my emotions when I wrote. There is a few other subjects…but those will be posted a lot later, because I have so many things from the loving relationship I had with my once best friend. The posts are going to be mushy and it is going to seem as if I am missing our romantic relationship (I am not missing that; I AM missing our close friendship); eventually, I will begin to post angry stuff. The reason I am choosing to post these things is because at that particular time in my life, I was really able to express myself beautifully on paper. I’m hoping that by reading the stuff again, I will get the urge to express myself poetically and not just blog about things that have no true rhyme or reason. Again, I am not wanting to disrespect the new relationship he has with a friend of mine…

Eventually, the posts will be less about him and more about other people. EVENTUALLY.

CKJ…

If I never see your face again, I (DO) mind…

13 Feb 20134 Oct 2013
When picturing you, I should not care what others see in my heart. Instead, I should choose to see my view. Moments before we met; at me, you flashed that…
CKJ…

Protected: Lie Baby Lie

11 Feb 201311 Mar 2020
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CKJ…

Ridiculous.

9 Feb 201311 Oct 2013
Idiotic; that is the way I feel. I chose to let myself run; so I could stop the feelings from actually being real.   Time; that is what he gave…
CKJ…

Relief

9 Feb 20132 Aug 2013
I assumed that it would forever be you; your memory has always cast a (dark?) shadow over other possible ones. When I admitted to you that you are my forever…
CKJ…

Stay, Stay, Stay

7 Feb 20134 Oct 2013
I do not need room that doesn’t include you; I want all of you in all of my space. I think you are scared too; based on the things you…
CKJ…

I knew you were trouble…

7 Feb 20134 Oct 2013
Insanity is defined as “doing the same thing over again and expecting different results.” By that definition, I am insane. That has been asserted many different times (mostly by males…
in my head…

I <3 Mom.

15 Oct 201213 May 2013
Today, she surprised me with a very sweet/thoughtful/heartfelt card. I use to get them from her all of the time, but it has been a while since I got one…
feelings from long ago...

…no date…(but it was in the 00’s)

12 Oct 201228 Apr 2013
I expect too much, my expectations are high. my standards are too high. I won’t try to work for something. I just expet (sic) things to happen. I trust no…
feelings from long ago...

6|15|00

12 Oct 201212 Oct 2012
I hope that I am just paranoid. Maybe you’re just really busy w/ moving and such. I wonder if you --- didn’t call b/c you were really worried about my…
feelings from long ago...

6|14|00

12 Oct 2012
I’m going completely mad! I cannot get you off of my mind. I miss you terribly. I finally got to talk to you today. Although it was only for a…

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