My brain–
yes, it is damaged.
I think I would be better off somewhere (like a mental institution) I cannot hurt someone or hurt myself emotionally.
Not insane–
no, I’m just misunderstood.
I think because I was fine in the beginning, it is believed that I now PURPOSELY hurt people.
I love–
yes, that is why I react violently.
I think that I say things I do not mean because I use my words as a my weapon – I always feel as if I am not being heard.
I have pushed her away, AGAIN–
no, I have not done it consciously.
I think she believes that it is now my easy excuse, she refuses to accept that I am not who I was.
I have pushed him away, for the first (and last) time.
yes, he thought I was innocent.
I think he thought was ready for more with me.
Why will no one accept that I am brain damaged? My emotions are not controllable by just me. I need other people to realize that the actions/reactions I have are able to be dealt with—it just takes patience; then they are seemingly controlled, because of the way I am “handled.”
I AM worth it…I am hurting and angry words/actions happen when I am in pain.
Maybe I should beg him to take me back…and be unhappy where “r’s” are pretty much nonexistent; instead of keeping her so pissed because I’m here and give the REAL man relief.
On my mind (again?) 