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my ritual for Jerry

We will be outside, sun shining, standing close. Very few people will attend, only b/c you feel self conscious, not b/c you are not loved.

We connected b/c we understood one another. We needed each other.

We would laugh @ breakfast, giggle @ bedtime. Watch “Robin Hood: Men In Tights” and laugh until our sides ached.

1) Jerry showed me what having a big brother is like.

2) Jerry showed me that ppl can see your inner being and love you all the same.

3) Jerry crushed me by leaving us.

4) Jerry angered me by giving up.