in my head If I do not care… 12 Oct 201214 Oct 2012 then why do I worry? A fairly recent digression occurred between me and another person is one that has baffled me. I haven’t any real connection to this person, so…
Jerry (a letter for my big brother, Jerry) 12 Oct 20126 Jun 2021 Jerry, I’m so sorry. Im sorry I thought you would grow out of your frustration. Im sorry I thought you would learn better coping skills. Im sorry that I was…
in my head jerry 12 Oct 201227 Mar 2013 my grief color Grey – b/c I’m unsure; mixed up Red – b/c I’m pissed Blue – b/c I’m regretful Yellow – b/c it (pain) is blinding & bright.
in my head 12 Oct 2012 What other people say to me about grief and mourning It’s hard, but you’ll move on. You’ll never really get over it. I’m sorry. Are you okay?
Jerry 12 Oct 2012 p 35 my ritual for Jerry We will be outside, sun shining, standing close. Very few people will attend, only b/c you feel self conscious, not b/c you are not…
Jerry 12 Oct 201212 Oct 2012 after confusing, scary, guilty, angry, continuous, questioning, numb, cold, thoughtful, stinging, achy(sic), regretful before
Jerry 12 Oct 2012 death is the unknown. the questioning. death is bitter cold. numbing pain. frightening visions and inescapable thoughts. life’s temperature is hot.
Jerry 12 Oct 2012 I could have missed the PAIN, But I’d have (had to) miss the dance 07.23.02 --But grief is about living. --Grief involves letting go of someone who has died, but…
Jerry I survive. I grieve. I love. 12 Oct 201225 Oct 2012 Jerry I guess you finally stopped believing Any hope would ever find you. (‘Tony’’ – Patti Griffin)
feelings from long ago... …no date…(but it was in the 00’s) 12 Oct 201228 Apr 2013 I expect too much, my expectations are high. my standards are too high. I won’t try to work for something. I just expet (sic) things to happen. I trust no…
On my mind (again?) 