then why do I worry? A fairly recent digression occurred between me and another person is one that has baffled me. I haven’t any real connection to this person, so why do I care that I have been suddenly put into the “trash” bin of that individual’s contacts? Okay, the digression that occurred was after I was placed into this “trash pile.”

I have questioned the person as to why I am no longer included in the group of friends and it is said that I should not worry with it and “if (I) think that (I am) faultless, then that is all that matters.” Geez…I think I am faultless because I am not aware of any negative thing occurring between the two of us. I have memory issues so I don’t remember many things.

I requested understanding why I am no longer considered a friend only when my numerous messages were “ignored” (it was said that they never received the messages, and I am unable to locate any proof that I sent them…). Truthfully, I say that I do not wish for the person to be in my life…but suddenly this person has befriended all of my old friends, so there must be some “good” to the friendship they offer. That shouldn’t bother me…right?

my grief color

Grey – b/c I’m unsure; mixed up

Red – b/c I’m pissed

Blue – b/c I’m regretful

Yellow – b/c it (pain) is blinding & bright.

What other people say to me about grief and mourning

It’s hard, but you’ll move on.

You’ll never really get over it.

I’m sorry.

Are you okay?