Monthly Archives: October 2012
Silly brain.
I feel so silly. I hide things from “everyone else” who may possibly stumble upon that thing I hid. I will even go as far as making the hint to my password for a website one that is too difficult for “someone else” to crack the code. I’m not sure why I do this becauseContinue reading “Silly brain.”
"Who is your worst friend?"
I know the things that affect me better than anyone else does. For instance; I know that commenting on the things I should have done or should do (or should be) only makes me angry which causes me to react like a child and rebel. So, I rarely (if ever) call attention to the factContinue reading “"Who is your worst friend?"”
"Remember a time when you were cruel as a child and write about it."
His name was Larry (I feel like the narrarator in ‘Fight Club’…). We were in 2nd grade (I think—details have been lost since the injury I sustained) at Tarrant City Elementary School. Larry was my best friend. Or a close friend…I recall having a crush on him. He always reminded me of Robert Palmer. WhenContinue reading “"Remember a time when you were cruel as a child and write about it."”
I <3 Mom.
Today, she surprised me with a very sweet/thoughtful/heartfelt card. I use to get them from her all of the time, but it has been a while since I got one (understandably, so). It makes me so happy when I look where I have it proudly displayed on my dresser in my room. ——————— Regret IsContinue reading “I ❤ Mom.”
I’m sorry…
I have started many blogs since I have found it to be cumbersome to physically write (thanks to my parents; one of my former speech therapists, Perry Liles; my student adviser and “cheerleader” at JSU, Professor Jerry Chandler, my friend, Chris; Mom, and Jeff among MANY other folks, for “pushing” me to begin writing again).Continue reading “I’m sorry…”
EUREEKA!
So, I now understand what I was confused about in my previous entry. I wish people would stop thinking that I am “back to normal” completely (despite my assertions). I forget things easily…and when I am reminded, it sometimes takes a few DAYS for the full memory to return. Oftentimes, I remember what I thoughtContinue reading “EUREEKA!”
If I do not care…
then why do I worry? A fairly recent digression occurred between me and another person is one that has baffled me. I haven’t any real connection to this person, so why do I care that I have been suddenly put into the “trash” bin of that individual’s contacts? Okay, the digression that occurred was afterContinue reading “If I do not care…”
(a letter for my big brother, Jerry)
Jerry, I’m so sorry. Im sorry I thought you would grow out of your frustration. Im sorry I thought you would learn better coping skills. Im sorry that I was frightened and unsure of how to react when you were in that home. Im sorry I ever let our bond be “forgotten” by distance, time,Continue reading “(a letter for my big brother, Jerry)”
jerry
my grief color Grey – b/c I’m unsure; mixed up Red – b/c I’m pissed Blue – b/c I’m regretful Yellow – b/c it (pain) is blinding & bright.
